Kings' Courier

Filed under Poetry and Prose

The life I was meant to live…

A true story written to let others know they are not alone.

Sometimes+in+life+we+feel+as+if+we+are+disappearing.
Sometimes in life we feel as if we are disappearing.

Sometimes in life we feel as if we are disappearing.

Sometimes in life we feel as if we are disappearing.

Advertisement

Hang on for a minute...we're trying to find some more stories you might like.


Email This Story






It all started back in January of 2016,

After my world crumbled upon me.

When I really started to think I was completely alone, when I couldn’t hide the sadness anymore, when I couldn’t fake that stupid smile for the people around me.

Truth be told when I was ready to end everything…

After a miserable year of pain, a year of being broken, a year of being told everything I wasn’t.

The brokenness that one person caused in my already broken world

Only to make it a thousand times harder for me to find a will to live,

But as the years passed and I learned to handle the pain, things started to look brighter.

Until, I let someone in and, not to my surprise, hurt me again.

They left me alone with a day dream that I feel stupid for thinking of.

That I might of actually had my first meaningful slow dance with someone that might care for me.

That slow dance didn’t come until a year later after I met someone that makes my world stop, someone that can make my heart tremble, someone that can make my words fall apart when looking into their eyes.

This person came waltzing into my life just in time to save me from the nightmare my life was becoming.

Unexpectedly knowing everything I needed in life.

Little did he know that night would have been my last.

This person truly was my saving grace.

The smile that stopped me in my tracks, that made me stop and think about what I was planning, that made me question if I could trust someone one more time.

The eyes that still looked at me with a glistening hope of perfection even with all the bruises, scars, and burned edges of a once perfect canvas.

Even with the light shining through, when held up to light, he could still see the big picture of someone that is willing to give all they have in order to make others feel loved.

Even with pieces of a broken heart falling to my feet with every passing second,

He slowly managed to pick them up and give them a stronger life.

With a stronger motivation to live things started to become easier.

Day by day my life is getting back on track, my life is starting to be the one I dreamed as a little girl, my life is becoming the journey I was meant to experience.  

Print Friendly, PDF & Email

5 Comments

5 Responses to “The life I was meant to live…”

  1. McKayla Thompson on November 2nd, 2018 12:23 pm

    This poem is beautiful! Reading this simply makes my heart happy! I’m so glad you found your way back on track. You are a very amazing girl, and I hope everyone sees that in you. I love how you described the happiness your boyfriend has brought into your life. Keep up the great writing.

  2. Josie Woolever on November 2nd, 2018 12:25 pm

    Great poem! I feel like so many people can relate this, myself included. I reached a point where similarly to you I no longer felt like I was enough for anyone. I’m glad to hear you were able to overcome this. Keep up the good work.

  3. Clara Licklider on November 5th, 2018 1:36 pm

    I love your poem! It is sad and dreary in the beginning but then brings up new hope towards the end. I could feel the emotion dripped into this poem and how much it really meant to you. Good job and stay happy! You only get one life to live.

  4. Ashli Key on November 6th, 2018 11:17 am

    This poem was very heartfelt knowing the struggles you have been through day by day. Personally, I have been in situations where at times it was hard for me to find the light shining through a dark tunnel, but as I read this poem, i could tell that nothing ever stopped you from persevering through the negative. I am glad you found someone who makes you feel whole again!

  5. Christian Lewis on November 6th, 2018 9:05 pm

    I have several things to say about this poem. But first: While on staff, I wrote several emotionally expressive poems, but because I did not have the conviction as a poet, they never saw the light of day. This is something I deeply regret, for choosing to leave your name off this poem is did not neglect the thesis of this poem, and, in fact, may help your audience more easily resonate with your main idea.

    Second: The symbolism in this poem is very personal and clear.

    Third: You had something very important to say, and poetry was a perfectly valid vessel to express that message. And I am very glad you said it.

    I hope this current spirit of encouragement never leaves you,
    Best wishes!

If you want a picture to show with your comment, go get a gravatar.




*

Navigate Right
Navigate Left
Lewis Cass High School, Walton, Indiana,
The life I was meant to live…